Saturday 26th December 2020
Anyone else glad that it’s all over? I feel like the pressure is off now. I’m not even sure what the pressure actually was, but it seems every year, the lead up to Christmas gets me like this.
I was organised with my presents and I wasn’t having to cook a Christmas dinner, all I have to do is enjoy the festivities. Then I found out my parents tested positive for COVID, meaning for the first time in my 39 years, I wouldn’t be seeing them on Christmas Day. Now I had something to actually cry about.
A few days later, the entire south east were plunged into Tier 4 so now pretty much everyone I knew was in the same position as me and wouldn’t be seeing their families. Everyone, it seemed was sad about Christmas, but the really lovely thing was the way we were all reaching out to each other, trying to keep each other afloat.
There are no other words I have to describe this year other than “utter shit” we all know that, but let’s look at what positive things came out of it. For me, I feel like I have made huge progress with my counselling sessions and I can go into 2021 knowing what I need to do for myself, I joined mind your fitness and learnt so much from this, Kristy not also taught me loads about nutrition, but also taught me how important is is to look after my mind as well as my body, they go hand in hand.
I learned a lot more about boundaries and setting them for myself, what I am able to give, how much and saying no when I need to.
I have been extremely fortunate to be able to work from home for the year, which I have loved, it has made me realise that I do enjoy my job which has given me the opportunity to progress in my career.
I’ve realised that I don’t need to have it all or do it all, things take time, making extensive lists serves me no purpose.
Its now obvious to all of us that people, not things, are most important and brings the most joy. Being separated from those we love made us realise what we have taken for granted all these years. Also, the husband and I being locked up together in our house has strengthened our relationship, it hasn’t been plain sailing but I do believe we are closer than ever.
By far the biggest thing for me is kindness. It is SO important. Being kind to others, of course, but being kind to myself. It is still a work in progress but these last few weeks in particular, I have seen some improvement in my self talk.
I look forward to going into the new year and continuing to improve myself, spending more quality time with those important to me and not taking those moments for granted.
What positives can you take from this year?
2020-12-26 13:00:00
