Self reflection

Sunday 16th August 2020

I know some of you have noticed (thank you for checking in on me ) I’ve had another little breather. Everything is fine, was just having an off week. I was bit, shall we say “over sociable” and I paid the price mentally, oh and so did the husband.

There’s been such a contrast in the last couple of weeks. 2 weeks ago, I was in such a great headspace. I was going out for my morning walks, which I found great for a bit of self reflection. It’s great to start the day with 30 minutes just to yourself.

My first revelation of the week, was that I spend way too much time focusing on all the things I haven’t done or achieved yet, rather than looking at the things I have done and achieved, no matter how small. This little gem came from my amazing coach, Kristy.

When I do my check ins, I tend to look at the numbers and think, “if I hadn’t had that to eat/drink maybe it would be better?” I focus on the negative.

Then Kristy gives me my feedback and reminds me of all the good things I have done, my water intake is improving, my weight and measurements ARE going down, my sleep is better and I’ve managed to stay in calorie deficit. I wasn’t achieving any of this before joining mind your fitness. I had no concept of how all of this was intertwined, let alone how to manage it.

Now, when my dickhead voice starts piping up about what I haven’t done, I am starting to automatically respond with the things I have actually done. This may sound like a small, simple thing but it’s actually pretty huge.

Before, I would think “oh I’ve had those biscuits now, may as well throw the towel in and have some cake.” Now, I think “we’ll I’ve had those biscuits, I did/didn’t enjoy them, but I’ve done really well with my water/sleep/calories/weight loss, so back to it now” Sounds simple enough doesn’t it? Maybe for you, but for me, who has had half a lifetime of bad diet advice and being taught to demonise food, its massively life changing and now when I do have something that I would have previously considered “bad” (with Kristy there are no bad foods!). I really enjoy it, instead of feeling guilty and even more impressive, after YEARS of secret eating, I haven’t done it once, since joining the 121 coaching!
Again, may seem like nothing to some people, but for me, that’s a habit I’ve had for over 10 years, something I did on at least a weekly basis and I haven’t done it for over 5 weeks! I’ve certainly had the urge, but having talked it through with Kristy, I now know how to deal with those feelings.

I still have plenty to work on, but I know that I am improving each week, even if it’s in a small way and I have to say, I’m bloody excited.